I'm pregnant. Pregnant, pregnant, pregnant. And it seems that I like to slip that into conversation whenever possible. For instance: "When I first found out I was pregnant", "Since being pregnant", "You're going to make the pregnant girl do that?", and so on and so forth. My mom stayed with us last night and as we were talking, I realized how much I was doing it. It's not really on purpose, but it's kind of a big deal in my life right now. In fact it's THE biggest deal in my life right now. Being pregnant has had it's ups and down and provided me with a lot of experiences that from time to time get shared. It's also possible that because I haven't been able to talk with my mom much since she was out of country for a month that I was trying to catch up on a lot of things. (Poor girl is still so jet-legged, she was falling asleep by the time she sat down.) Or it could be the fact that I've been waiting so long to say the words that there's a lot of "I'm pregnant!"s pent up.
The real issue for me is that I don't want to become one of those really annoying girls who gets pregnant and talks about it so much it's like she's force-feeding it down your throat and you just want to slap her and walk away. No, I've never had that feeling before. ;) I truly feel incredibly blessed for this opportunity in our married lives and can't wait to meet our little child. However, I've been in that position where you are stuck sitting and waiting around for my turn while just about everyone else is sharing what's going on in their pregnancy or what their child is doing. Even if they really aren't doing it (or at least not on purpose), you feel like they are saying, "Neener neener! I'm pregnant and you're not! Haha!". There's a small part of me that feels slightly guilty for receiving this good news when so many are still waiting. Though I must say, it seems like this baby boom is rubbing off on those of us who have been waiting an extra long time. A friend of mine is finally pregnant after 12 years! Awesome! However, there are still wonderful ladies who are waiting their turn for their first and some even struggling for a second. My heart breaks and goes out to those of you who are in this situation. I hope your day comes soon. I've said this to one friend already, but I have half the box of a month's supply of ovulation tests, that helped me get pregnant, available. It's cliche, but knowing is half the battle. Just sayin'. :)
So, basically, if you are around me and the word "pregnant" slips out of my lips frequently and it's driving you crazy, feel free to give me a gentle smack (I am pregnant after all) and walk away. :)
You can't say it enough, Jenny!!
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